Broken Stone

I saw a lil kid, running around smiling, giddy and proud
I heard through her heart cries of laugher, broken but loud
It told me a secret to keep safe and sound
And bury my promises somewhere to never be found

Then on a gloomy day, I saw the reflection of eyes that resembled hers
And remembered my promise despite my memory’s failures and blurs
Is her vulnerable heart a still blessing of joy?
Or has it fallen for the world’s sins of decoy?
Her heart that has once spoken to me, told me the secrets of its existence
But why did she let her heart succumb to the scars of pain’s persistence?
Why did she let her tears become a whisper to her eyes down the isle of sorrow?
Why did she let her faith become a memory that her past had opted to borrow?
Why was her breath an attempt to her survival that had tended to furrow?
Why was her love a mystery to her own heart that has housed a metallic burrow?

I needed her; I need to apologize to have broken my vow
What I have known in the past, shattered me in the now
Only betrayed my lil girl, my one self, my own…
To find my once young, vulnerable heart grown to be broken stone

June 9, 2009

Failures of Love

In this life of contradictions, I almost believed the end of choice
Where I tried to sing but not hear my own voice
Or look in the mirror to see myself but not the one I know
Now I can only blame you for your love that will not let go

I had to stray from your paths; I had to ignore your words
I was let stuck at crossroads of two different worlds
One was born for you, and the other has chosen me
But putting them together hasn’t been meant to be

Merely for life, freedom is my pursuit
Trial and error has always been my destined route
Where I end up is my lesson, not yours
The more painful it is, the easier become the harder chores

I found myself destroyed by your conserved means
Ones that promise a transformation obscenely unseen
Maybe my nature can teach you, my master, some compassion
To allow a susceptible learner grow into a leader of true passion

Just send me an angel to look over me,
Or release that devil that controls my destiny
I ask for an angel’s love, to save what is left of me
Or let go of my shattered self, to release the captivated soul-to-be


June 4, 2009